As a whole...
things are good...
me and Jon are working through everything that needs to be worked out.
doing stuff that hasn't been done in a while, which sadly seems to make things better.
wierd...
but im sad as hell.
i dont know what it is.
or why, but there is something making me upset.

my mom has cancer...ovarian(spelling).
great...
what the fuck happens to me if shes gone?
she tells me almost every day that i can have her car when she dies....
she then gets drunk tells me off and passes out infront of the tv.

i went with her to the hospital.
its the worst thing in the world to see your mom crying because shes scared.
i went home to an empty house and had noone to come over...JOn got mad at me cause i was being a "bitch"
and then he went to Katies and then to work.
i watched some t.v... cried and then eventually fell asleep.

I wish everyone(jon) would realize that if im being a bitch its only because i have a SHIT load going on right now.
i hate life and it sucks....i feel really alone like i have no one to talk to and it blows...no one understands.